Janie? What the hell?

What the crap happened to your blog?

Exhaustion...and how to fix it

Well, everyone knows I started this new job in April and so far it has sucked the life out of me. I have put ten thousand miles on my car since then and an average of 150.00 bucks a week into the tank. This is a high pressure job. The last sales job I had was working from my home, but it involved a good bit of office work and not so much out of the office bits. So trying to get my daughter ready to go to another home school has been crazy and busy and then vacation and trips to the beach and going to get one child and picking mine up have left me feeling like I haven't had two seconds to myself and when I do I feel like I'm brain dead.

And I don't like it.

*sigh*

But what to do? I suck at time management but I think I'm going to have to get better at it. That and I need to take better care of myself. I think I need to start some kind of excercise program to clear my head and work out the kinks.

Okay, enough bitching for one night. I'm going to go try and get some writing done before I pass out.

Hugs to everyone!
Michelle

Perhaps I've figured it out...

I wonder if maybe the stress of the last year running through my brain had staunched the creative flow and I really think it did. I couldn't think past what I was doing from one moment to the next. Living moment by moment is an interesting concept but not somewhere I'd like to be long term. Plus, taking this job, the sales one, was and has been extremely stressful. I've lost my home office and am truly working for a witch who has no people skills at all. But I'm taking steps to rectify that. I have another interview with another company for a sales position that would be making more money but with less stress.

But all that bullshit aside. I think I've got it figured out. I think, that Miranda knows what she is and has been in hiding and Tam, is blind, unknowing what he is or why he is even in this dimension. And the curse that haunts the both of them has followed them. Miranda knowing that someone will someday try to kill her and Tam not knowing that he is the one prophesied to do the deed. I watched Romeo and Juliet vid's on you tube yesterday and one of the things that I love about that story is forbidden love. A tragic and forbidden love. With parents that are selfish and think only of themselves and I think that the fae are a bit like that too. Or the royalty would be. They'd have to be in order to survive. Succession is another thing I have to think about because after all that is where the curse came from. It came from a King who feared for his throne. The dark king, Tam's father hates his son. Hates that in a moment of passion he created someone or something that could usurp him, over power him, and that is his big secret. If Tam goes back to Faery he is as good as a dead man and he'll know that because to save Miranda he'll have to go with her. He can't go without her or be here without her. He cannot fathom the thought. Leo does a great Romeo and inspired that bit.

Off to write now while the idea is fresh in my mind. Need to sketch this out.

Private blog for writing posts only

I want a place where I can bitch basically and not worry about people who shouldn't see this blog seeing it. Does that make sense? So if I want to bitch about work I can and not have to worry about the repercussions.

Janie, you are the only one so far who can see this blog. I haven't decided if I'll let anyone else see it or not.

So this blog is back in business. I'll still post to the other one as well because it's fun. And that way I can keep up with people. But here, here is where I'll be for myself and if Janie wants to read what I'm doing. Which if by going from the last few months, that would be a big flat zero. Zilch. But not going to beat myself up about it.

Posted a video on my regular blog that I really like. May post it here as well.

Mucking it up

I've mucked up the blog and really this blog has seen better days. So this blog is closing down. The archives are not really much use to anyone but myself. You can find me


HERE


Ciao old blog...

Honey, it's cold outside...

Brrrr brrr chilly chilly
Is everyone staying warm? I'm beginning to doubt that my fingers are ever going to get warm and have actually contemplated cutting the fingers off my knitted gloves to stay warm.

I would like to say happy early birthday to my sister who is getting ready to turn the B-I-G "30" next month. Woot!

Well, I have another interview tomorrow for a different place so we'll see how that goes. I'm ever hopeful. LOL.

Other than trying to stay warm, I've been writing.
on the 21st I wrote 1727 words
on the 22nd I wrote 2006 words
on the 23rd I wrote 2145 words
and today I've written 531...(today has been a sucky day-what can I say)

I only hope that the work I've done is worth a hoot. I'll see next week when I go back and really look at it. But I am writing from a short outline so we'll see. That helps.

B&B total word count for Friday 25,758

Still thinking on TWAB and trying to decide how I want to go and think I after I finish B&B that I may just have to write it and see how it goes. It's not like I can't re-write it if I hate it.

So things here are good if not cold.

On a side note I really miss my playlist. I may have to add it back, but I know it irritates people.

Winter has arrived and has decided not to leave

It's cold here in the Carolinas. Terribly wickedly cold. We've a fairly mild climate here in the piedmont of the state but for the last few weeks arctic winds have arrived and made moving around a bit difficult. I cannot seem to get warm and have been drinking great quantities of tea. Currently 34'F and overcast with rain on the way. Brrrrhhhh.

On other thoughts...writing being one of them I realized that for more than a year I've been writing on TWAB. It is the one story that consumes me but also drives me mad. No matter what I do I can't seem to massage it enough to make it work. And I do mean work for me. The part that makes me insane is that I cannot get what I see in my head down on the paper but it's too good a story to let go. Don't get me wrong. I'm not giving up on it, but I think TWAB and I need a separation of sorts. I'm too close to it right now and need to step back so I can look at the whole objectively. I have way too much written to chunk it all. But I think I need a change of scenery, an opportunity to think about something else.

So for the next month or so I'm going to give TWAB a rest. I've mudded the waters too much with all my splishing and splashing about everywhere. I've started researching middle grade books based on where I grew up. I had a cute little idea and I'm going to plot out some of those books and see what happens.

Still looking for part time work and I just dropped my application in at a craft store. (woo hoo) I love to paint and do all sorts of things with clay and what not, so we'll see what happens there and I did down play some of my experience.

How is everyone else surviving this winter?